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CLOUD BUBBLE POP! The answer was always easy. You just had to put yourself through the process. but this word process it bores me. Can’t it be more then a process? How bout a mythological adventure. (in boring voice) Whatever floats your boat. Well then, you put it so clearly. I now agree to agree that I have the answers for me. with these great questions. Like imagine your on your death bed.

I can’t imagine anymore! My brain functions are slower then before. The pollution and the nasty food has given me imitation autism. The tools are weak and I don’t want to be weak no more. I don’t want to be sore. We are machines with souls. Robots with tolls. STAY FOCUSED ON YOUR ENERGY evertyhing changes but comes and manifests in it’s infinite ways. It’s the energy game we’re playing. The energy is consistent. A block needs an unblock. FIND OUT WHAT’S BLOCKING YOU NOW!!! CONNECT THE EXISTENTIAL DOTS.

SO we’re all connected. but why do we treat each other like jerks. not all of us, just some of us. why do we do the things we do. just to do them over and over again. who is really having fun doing the same thing over again. NO one. Keep track of what u do. take yourself seriously. give your energy to yourself. betruetoyourself youflying bird. This is my battle. no it’s also your battle, or your mother’s battle. or game or journey or path or insane asylum or just human or your just human. I’m a human from a different planet. STand out and they’ll get pissed at u. They won’t try to understand u. They’ll frow stones at u just at first. and then they’ll forget about you, and maybe thy’ll like you, thye’ll love you. and then they get pissed at u. but as soon as u notice them, they’re not talking to u. they’re ignoring you. They’re not even thinking about you. And then it’s in your head, but then it’s not in your head and then you develop severe neuorosis. And you say you’re above it and it doesn’t look pretty, but you ain’t because your human too and if your not keeping yourself aware too. you could develop your very own special brand of neuorosis and before u know it. your in a box. with fungus. but aren’t u suppose to care about what they think. NOOOOOOOO. forget about all this stuff. Just stay healthy. excercise eat right, and all the better stuff.

Energy.

Fruits Vegetables Excersize, meditation

Communication. Doing what you say your going to do. COMpletion of the uncompleted.

Give and recieve, give and receive, give and receive, give and receive.

and I said LORD YOU OWE ME NOTHING. BUT your a friendly little critter.

And then I became an alien from Planet Zebra. A re-occurring nightmare. Because the planet, it’s either black or white, black or white. Nothings grey, Here! HA! HA! HA! black or white baby. Which one do you want?!

Baby: I don’t want either. I just want Jesus.

LORD: Fine you could have Jesus! When you fall asleep.

NERD: That’s soooo funny. Can I sleep with you guys?

LORD and BABY: No your tooo nerdy. WAY toooo nerdy. And your conversational timing is way off.

Oh but those hairy armpits. They’re for real. Aren’t they?

And oh on your marks get set. Go, go away from me you freak a saur.

I woke up again. Must of taken life too seriously. It’s human to make the same mistake over and over and over and over again. BUT stop it come on sometimes the mistakes are too obvious. OOoops I did it again. Uhhhhhhhhh, maybe mistakes don’t exist. Yes another idea.

Project number 1.

HOld your breath.

number 2.

Open mouth.

number 3

Look at mirror

I hear nothing, I TAKE NOTHING! BUT i want something!!!!!!! Give it to me now you jerks.! GIVE IT ALL TO ME so I can make a profit of a hundred MILLION DOLLARS! I’ll give you a slinky , that’ll keep you curious for 5 minutes. Enough time for me to run away and your blah blah blah. ALL OF YOU JUST A BUNCH A BLAH BLAH BLAH AND POTATOE. See me I’m a wizard, I’ve mastered shrinkage. High TECH SHRINKAGE, yEAH I”ve got the magic baby. You your just dry human waist. YOu’ve LOST that spirit that soul, your just a robot. Me I’M A TOXIC AVENGER. I MEAN yeah I’m a hero just a little TOXIC! SO WATCH OUT! I bark at you.

Oh no! My back is decaying, please help me and my little fairies, help me, help me. My back is decaying. I’m getting old. I’m a little duck. quack quack shribble bibble HIGH QUALITY HIGH TECH SHRINKAGE FOR THE MASSES. face bubble saliva tickle me silly and call me up. I’m bored and tired and I want a new thing. I miss the one who doesn’t give a rats but. What happen to those people?

I don’t know u. How strong is your word. You don’t want to make up your mind. You want to stay unpredictable. Fine you’re allowed. Just take the REsponsiblity. damn I hate responsebility I don’t want to grow up. I want to throw up.

I’m from your momma. yay. hmmmm? Can u remind me what that is again?

Sure it’s the five wishes. You do believe in the five wishes?

1. blah

2. blah, blah

3. blah, blah, blah

4. blah, blah, blah, blah

5. blah, blah, blah, blah, blah

And now we can make a profit, just like the good older days. Enchant me YOU damn spirit. ENCHANT ME!

The program wanted you to know your not needed. You’re not important. Put your cookies to rest. buy a ticket and go on a life long vacation. It’d rather you enjoy the circus for the rest of your life.

What’s coming back. Can it be pretty for a change? Yes you can come back. You and your mother. Come back make a come back. Everybody wants you to succeed. I want everybody to succeed. I’d rather everybody be happy and nice. No ones above. No ones below. It’d be nice if we all start localizing. People meet more people out of easiness. Most people don’t make efforts. when they want something they make efforts. What do you want? Do you have enough courage to want something? To Claim you want something. and tell everybody. Because nobody wants to hear you. Because they want to be heard and thats the problem. Everybody wants to be heard. Why is listening hard to do? Why isn’t the community nuturing our soul? there is no community. or maybe we’re babies. Or maybe we’re nasty old. or maybe we’re all a little irritable. Go away dreamer, you didn’t listen to my dream. My dream is just as important as your dream. RElationships don’t grow, egos make u nuts. You end up living in a farm in the middle of no where. Where no body can top your ego. The ego smells. But that’s just an idea. Whose to say such a thing exists. They been writing about it for so long, it almost seems like it exists. Egos don’t exist. Your either crazy or not. Don’t blame it on something that doesn’t exist.

writing writing all you can do is get sick of writing. GEt sick of it. go outside burn the house down. Rock the boat. Make me a coffee. Make me a black coffee. REAL writing takes thinking. REal writing has meaning. REal writing has purpose. I don’t care about the writing. I just want the tingling feeling. The feeling the void. I want to be stuck their forever. I don’t want to go back. to time. When time started that’s when I first farted. when time started that’s when I started worrying like my Mother all day long.

So I know I’m not alone. But when I stand out I am alone! Who trained us to care what other people think. Who was that monkey. that -sshole. that jerk! It must of been our parents. I should of put them to sleep. full circle. I wish I didn’t care. but there’s always that feeling. You care, she cares, we all care, but the wrong people and the right people. but don’t make a ANOTHER neurotic thing about it.

Yeah I want to write the unwritable. I want to flow it out and negative thought blocks me from achieving. I thought I heard my voice. and it was all a bunch of bull. The truth is I’m DULL. Making excuses, dull, duller and everything around me is dull, half-ass minds, half-ass voices. and it’s all my fault because I’m not doing my part and just making it worst. BLAME me! for Everything. Blame me for this dull world. blame me! Don’t read this, buck buck buck buck. Don’t read the Ideas of a chicken with hair all over its body. I’m pissed and angry and I can’t take it. I will take it all and put it in a box, in the corner of this room. I will stay in this box for the rest of my life. So nobody will be exposed to my unconscious negativity. The face I carry will be gone forever. SOn I can give a rat’s but! People work for a living, do you think they care if they unleash the negative? I guess not, why would they? Everybody is probably in their way. And what about love. LOve is a bullshit tacky word! Until you feel it! It’s BULLSHIT and TACKY! Well it’s bullshit and tacky then! Because I blocked love a long time ago, I didn’t know what I was doing. I had no idea I was hurting myself, but it’s not all my fault! It was the people too, everybody was a bunch of jerks. Superficial dumb jerks, except when I went to sleep away camp, they were sometimes nicer their, together we sang songs. But as I got older and as I get older, Love is everywhere, and I continue to put on more armour. I don’t even mean to do it anymore, it just happens. It is what it is. I guess it’s all my fault. Who else’s fault is it? it’s all mine. me me mine me mine……… GET OUT OF YOUR HEAD, GET OUT OF YOUR HEAD, GET OUT OF YOUR HEAD. When do we meet the people that really inspire us?

Tired of your old ways? Are you ready to start your new way? PAY MONEY TO THE LORD. THE LORD WANTS YOUR MONEY NOW!!!!

A. Buy a therapist.

B. Buy a self-help book.

C. DONATE DONATE A HOT DOG SANDWICH.

You feeling better? You need a stick of dynamite, how bout a fake one. You can have it with your best friend with teeth falling out Seymour the NEw Stuff.

everythings ok, everything is fine, but it’s not, but whats the point, whining only leads to more whining. Like attracts like or does that apply to everything. Maybe not. Out of my head and into my but I go. I can’t breath, it surely is poison. Tired of my ways, tired of my habits. It surely is my fault, but it doesn’t help to blame yourself. Don’t be a vegetable anymore, please whatever you do, be honest don’t put on another mask even though you can’t help it.. How many masks do you have? 10 20 30 infinity……………….. Well don’t give me that mask lady. You and your ugly mask. You’re a freak a dinosaur.

bitter old smelly thoughts go away. don’t come back. find the voice you keep think your losing. Roar, tick tock snarl, scratch change me. blank reading on blank. blank man lost. I got to go. then go! Gooooo! Damn it! and don’t take anything personnel. Concentrate on you and everybody. from you out.

I upset, whens the last time you remembered. Well it wasn’t yesterday, it was definitely today. I renewed my everything, everything. and you know what happened, the worst thing in the world. I was made fun of. I was looked upon as small, nothing. Because I did it, I confused my mind into thinking two disconnected fragmented ideas were connected. Not true. You think this is pretty. Pretty smelly. Go head call attention to your nose wiggle so everybody could see. Your soooo cute. wink wink wink wink. hint hint hint.

I found my voice when I was young and now I found my voice again and now I realize I’ve always had my voice. SO WHATS THE BIG DEAL! Big deal! Yes the big deal! IT’S ME I’m the big deal! I’m always the big deal you DAMN IMATURE SILLY SCARDY CAT. WAKE UP AND SMELL THE BIG PICTUER! It’s here to stay and it won’t go away!. Yeah good neurotic nut case. dumb stupid NUT wad! I’m a chicken and you love that AND IT’S ALL MY FAULT but now I think you think it’s my fault. So it is so it is. I admit it’s all my fault. You dumb fault is trying to find the truth when it’s right in front of you. and oh yea it’s no big deal. but yeah it’s a big deal. Yeah so what and everything is everything.

Yes it is true, I now have powers. super powers of mass production. a million bannas I can sell for a dollar each to make a million dollars. a sad millions dollars. no no just kidding really wacky happy million dollars. and they’re all laughing at me. buck buck buck bock buck bock. and finally what have you a melon head and three eyes, and snot all over your face. I’m not connecting yes you are, no yes no yes I can’t tell. I really want, oh yeah don’t care, I forgot. Oh yes you care, someone cares, maybe ten people care. GOOD WHATEVER! WHO CARES! I WANT A HUNDRED MILLION SO I COULD MAKE A HUNDRED MILLION! YOU CAre don’t you! Good BUY my bannanas, buy them all!!!!!!